This was originally published at The Literary Side
Often times I read a blog post and I think why can’t I write like that? I don’t necessarily mean the way a person writes, though there’s a bit of that too I admit, but more that I wish I could be so honest. I wish I could write from the deep down inside and spill it out onto the page. I often don’t. I keep to trivial things, meme’s, mild nonsense because I don’t know how more would be taken.
The worst possible thing would be rejection. As a writer facing rejection does not get easier no matter if it’s your first or your fiftieth. It hurts, it stings, it slaps you in the face and points out all your faults.
So what worries me is writing down the those ‘deep thoughts’ and being told they aren’t good enough, interesting enough or worthy enough. I don’t know where that leaves me. Maybe I will write ‘deep thoughts’ and be okay with whatever result they generate.
When I write for my characters, they aren’t real. I can make them say and do and feel anything I want, that’s the point of fiction. Yes, naturally they are all in their own ways a part of me the author because in order to make them believable (which I have to hope they are) I need to have a reference on their emotions. I need to have had something in myself that is in relation to the character. Often we think of it as the other way around, the character relating to the reader but when you are the author I think the character lives inside us.
I wrote this out the other day when I was trying (probably horribly because a lot of the time unless you live in my brain, you likely have no idea what I’m talking about) to get across a point to someone else about their own words. I said:
“Every POV is inside the author”
It doesn’t matter who or what we write about. I think inside each of us is that POV we hope to send down onto the page in pen and ink.
As I said before, sometimes unless you’re in my head you have no idea what I’m talking about. For now I’m okay with that.