Finding purpose

There are few things more frustrating to me than having a plan change. I am a person who likes a plan. I like a plan like my dog likes a nap (which is all the time). The plan I started forming back in September was that I’d enroll in a viticulture certificate course online through Washington State University.* I’d heard the enology certificate was generally at full capacity with a long waitlist. Plus it involved chemistry and compounds and all those other chemically scientific things I don’t really understand.

dscn3037Viticulture –  (from the Latin word for vine) is the science, production, and study of grapes. It deals with the series of events that occur in the vineyard. It is a branch of the science of horticulture.

I’m a behind the scenes kind of gal anyway, so viticulture seemed more my speed. The support crew of the wine making process. I’d rather learn about the soil that grows the vine, and the vine that grows the grapes, than actually learning how to make the grape into the wine.

Sign me up for the viticulture certificate. Deposit paid to join the certificate waitlist ($50). Classes would start February 2017.

With that enthusiasm for the process, and the idea that once I completed the 18 month certificate, I’d try for a job at one of the hundreds of wineries around Seattle. There’s even a tasting room 5 minutes from our house in Seattle. With a certificate I would at least have some knowledge of the wine industry, even if all I ended up doing was working in a tasting room pouring wines and discussing the nuances of the cabernet sauvignon or resiling.

Dreamy times, my friends.

That was until Tuesday evening when I received an email saying that they had filled the certificate course from the waitlist. And I would be kept in the queue for the certificate class in 2018. High demand and all that.

sadness_fullbody_renderSigh.

I’ve been interested in this program for years, and interested in anything in the wine industry for quite awhile but I became very intrigued after The Husband took me to Sonoma 5 years ago (?). I couldn’t get enough, of not just tasting wines, but learning about the process. At that point I’d already decided in the future I’d earn the certificate.

Now I feel a bit lost as to what to do. I’d been looking forward to this course, terrior, getting down and dirty (so to speak), plant diseases, and the best fertilizers, and pruning. I was excited about all that.

Now….shiftless.

I’m interested in lots of things, history – especially anything revolutionary war era, mid 1500-1900’s England, civil war and reconstruction, I’ve even started watching lectures on the middle ages {and I am finding it weirdly fascinating}. I even did two classes on religion {and am about as unreligious and skeptical as they come}. I even read most of the books discussed in the American Novel Since 1945 class as well.

All of these are lectures you can watch via Yale Online, for free, whenever you want, for no credit. The viticulture certificate would have given me an official piece of fancy paper that would show I took the classes – papers, participation, tests, wine knowledge weekends and all – with proper grades and merit and all of that, rather than just something I had been doing for fun. {and I know how weird that is to most people, furiously scribbling notes about the middle ages or the American revolution while watching college lectures by choice. my dearest wish has always been to get locked into a bookstore or a library for a night. maybe I’m beyond weird?}

It would have been something I could build a second career on. I am still on the waitlist for the next session in 2018. 2018? That’s a long way away at this point, and who knows where I’ll be then, especially since there are several required winery learning weekends in Washington you have to attend.

I’m feeling restless, and rather down about the whole thing. Yesterday I watched this documentary on Gerhard Richter, a fantastic German abstract painter. I think today it’s time for me to finally break into my oil paints and get creative on a piece of canvas. No more nice little landscapes. Today might be time to create a good piece of abstract expression.

Death on the Vine perhaps…. What are you up to on this cold December Thursday?

 

 

*this is after I was enrolled in a BS degree at WSU for English/Art History, which was to start last summer. deposit (non-refundable be the way) paid, classes selected, advisor talked to. at which point in trying to decide my classes for fall semester my advisor let me know they really weren’t running the art history classes/major. they didn’t have enough interest. which sucks since that was why I was going to go to school there. so when tuition came due – $6,500 for 3 classes – I decided not to go forward. I was going to finish my degree for me, so what’s the point of spending ALL that money if it would be in a subject that wasn’t what I wanted? plans change.

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